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Tuesday, July 14th, 2009
11:43 pm	Number 1. MLB All Star game? Go fuck yourself. You're useless and don't mean shit. Number 2. Refer to number 1. Gahhhhh... Um. Yeah. I don't use this enough. I just death threat'd Myspace because they wouldn't delete my account there. Fun. They sent me an email back 2 mins later. See? It DOES work. This might go soon too. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 14th, 2009
2:59 am	Something may come of this... Current Mood: enthralled Current Music: Goldfinger - Superman (Comment on this)
Monday, May 25th, 2009
11:59 am	Holy shit, my head hurts. So I did overtime until about 930p last night, in an effort to get out early to hit up a party in Beverly. I got dragged into another party in Medford with people from work. I'm not disappointed at all. Had about 10 peeps from work over there (and only peeps from work, too) and we all pretty much had BBQ and played Beer Pong and Flipcup all night. And I've never played either. Yet, I ruined everyone at Beer Pong, and dominated Flipcup. Palmer + Keg of Bud Light = Happy, Moderatly Buzzed Palmer. I got home at about 330a. I just woke up about 20 mins ago. And my head is spinning. Whooooooooooo... Current Mood: drained Current Music: Linkin Park - New Divide (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 9th, 2009
1:07 pm	I called in "sick" yesterday to work, and pretty much did nothing. Just didn't feel like going in, plus also was headed to a SSBB tourney at Jonna's last night. Picked up Alicia, and drove to Reading. When I get there, Jonna states that the Brawl tourney would start at 1000p. Well...gay. That meant I probably wouldn't have enough time to do both tournaments. Turns out, we started this throwdown at 1030p (roughly around then), and I got bounced in the 2nd round because I had to wait for a few hours before I could fight. Went home almost immediatly after that, after dropping off Alicia. Got home, listened to a few tunes, and hit the sack after that. What bugs me at the moment are people who say they are coming to something, and at the last minute, bounce out, saying they're doing something else instead. It screwed me over, and I'm sure screwed over plenty of others last night. While the night was fun, I really didn't find myself having any part of that fun. I really was prepared to hopefully win the tournament, but I couldn't get into the more meaningful, 2nd tourney. Plus, the attitudes of some friends definitely need to change. It's not only annoying to me, but annoying to so many others. Shape up, already. Hopefully, you know who you are. I'm just a little irked. But I'll get over it. I think I'm already over it, but hell, it threw me off last night a little. Felt like getting it off of my chest. Also, Alicia: Definitely so much cuter with the new haircut =D I like! Sox game tomorrow, WHAT? Sox game tomorrow. Can't wait for that. Might go to church tomorrow too. It might do me some good. Otherwise, nothing else. Current Mood: focused Current Music: (iPod) Papa Roach - Lifeline (Comment on this)
Monday, May 4th, 2009
11:55 pm	I need a reality check. I really need a reality check. One of my best friends just moved away to Texas, with his fiance. I wish him the best and all, but since he's gone, my heart has just sunk into the depths of the nine hells. I'm not upset just because he's gone, I'm upset just because the fact that so many of my friends are getting way further ahead than I am, and I'm stuck in the slow lane, unable to keep up. I know I shouldn't worry. I'm 24, almost 25. But every day that passes, I always wonder...what the hell am I doing? I know my direction. I'm just hesitant. And desperate. How do I do this...? Current Mood: pessimistic Current Music: John Frusciante - Unreachable (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 2nd, 2009
12:03 pm	I think I need to stop while I'm behind. I am the true american meaning of "failure." Current Mood: rejected
1:15 am	The things I would do to restore my life back to a normal order. I'm in so much chaos right now. I really wish I was more into the party tonight. But I wasn't. Maybe I really should have gone home instead of going. Might have done me and some others good. Now, I'm awake at 115a, and I'm gonna sleep like shit, because I spent most of my night, thinking. Oh, and today sucked, which started the fire. Failed my recertification at work. Enough said. I'm just gonna go upstairs now and just...you know, I don't fucking know. I don't know anymore. Don't know where I'm headed, or where I want to go. And I don't know how to take myself off of cruise control. It's a never ending cycle. Fuck this. Current Mood: distressed Current Music: 3 Doors Down - She Don't Want the World (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 28th, 2009
11:57 am	I'm a very passive, patient guy. But boy, did I want to punch someone in the face last night at the apt. This tune helps me relax. And I played it over and over again last night...thank you, Nobuo. Thank you. Back to pirating, LULZ. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Crisis Core: Final Fantasy VII ST - The Price of Freedom (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, April 24th, 2009
11:38 pm	I worry too much. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Dethklok - Briefcase Full of Guts (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009
2:12 pm	This train just keeps barrelling forward... So besides my life just continuing further, and on cruise control, I really have nothing to write about here. Except the fact that like...I have not posted in forever, so I might as well put something. Went to Florida a few weeks ago. It was...decent. Although, it really didn't take the edge off of my life. I still feel wound up, and tense, and shit like that. Plus it was kinda...boring...to say the least. Maybe that's just me. Who knows. Maybe "vacation" just is not in my vocabulary. Maybe I just love my job so much that I just want to keep working and making the money. Though, some days, yes, I do feel like killing myself, but I still like what I do. Otherwise... Heather is awesome. No question about that. But I'm playing it smart...taking it slow...I've made the horrible decision of jumping right into a relationship without any thought or consideration of anything. So, I'm scoping this out, and we shall see where this goes. We did have our first kiss last night. That's a highlight, right? On a final note...Alicia...you and me, when next we meet, we ARE going to Amazing, and getting you something. That...my child...is a promise. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: (iPod) Metallica - No Leaf Clover (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 5th, 2009
12:18 am	It's almost Monday. Which means almost time to fly down to FLAWDA. /VACATION START Also...why didn't anyone fucking tell me that The Black Mages came out with a 3rd album? In March? OF 2008??? See you bitches on the flip-side. Current Mood: cold Current Music: The Black Mages - Grand Cross (FF IX) (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 2nd, 2009
12:07 am	Hmmmmmmm... Let's see where this goes now, shall we? My gut says...go for it! This may be unlike any other... Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Disturbed - Façade (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 26th, 2009
5:25 pm	Ok. Seriously. I'm done. After last night and last night's meltdown, I'm so done. I hate my family. I hate myself. And I hate everything I do. I don't want to be around here anymore. Current Mood: infuriated
Thursday, March 19th, 2009
11:50 am	Dissidia: Final Fantasy ... it's off. The. Chain. It just might save the PSP from all of it's boring titles. Unless Square fucks it up. And delays the release. And typical Square-Enix shit like that. I can almost guarentee that Square will do this. Expected release, however: August 2009. Other than that...I have nothing to report. I woke up at 700a this morning and didn't (couldn't) go back to sleep. Lately, I've been getting poor amounts of sleep; about 4-5 hours a night. Nothing is on my mind, and I'm not thinking about anything in particular that could hinder this. I dunno. I'm just hoping that my vacation goes off without a hitch. It will happen. I will make this happen. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 14th, 2009
5:08 pm	R.I.P Andrew Martin. Age, 33. To those of you who may not know who I am talking about, it is a sad day for WWE fans everywhere. A former champion. Andrew Martin, A.K.A "Test." Here is the article that I found out the information from. - http://sports.espn.go.com/espn/news/story?id=3980073 Current Mood: shocked (Comment on this)
Monday, March 9th, 2009
12:01 am	Let's see. Not much to report on now. I'm single. Big surprise there. But it's not bugging me. Still no word on the promotion at work. Monday should either make me happy or make me punch someone, according to rumors. I just bought the JP version of Dissidia: Final Fantasy (WIN). Cause I was allowed to be bad this time. I got my tax refund back, so piss off. But things are well, I suppose. T-Minus 27 days. And counting... Current Mood: restless Current Music: Creed - Higher (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 26th, 2009
4:21 pm	I hope and pray to GOD I get my promotion at work. 126 applicants. 20 openings. And I fucking KNOW that TSA will...WILL give these openings to shitholes who do NOT deserve them. FUCKING CALLING IT NOW. A debate at work has sparked this rant, and now, I hate TSA forever. I like the job, I hate the agency. Fucking love this shit, where favoritism rules your face 24/7/365. You get on your knees like a good little boy, you will be a Supervisor within DAYS. If you work hard, do your work, make an impression on so many passengers, strive to make this place better, ect ect ECT like I do, I'll get a good ol' "Go fuck yourself," and won't get SHIT. I really need to move on from this place. This is driving me up the fucking walls EVERY FUCKING DAY. The pay is not worth what I do, or what we all do every fucking day. I get paid great, but I'm putting my fucking life on the line every fucking day for management that DOESN'T GIVE TWO SHITS about what the FUCK we're doing. Oh, and I'm a trainer. That much said, I cannot STAND these mother fuckers that say I'M DOING THIS SHIT WRONG. HEY FUCKHEAD. I'VE BEEN DOING THIS SHIT FOR LONGER THAN YOU HAVE. BACK THE FUCK OFF, TAKE A SEAT, AND LET ME DO MY SHIT. BACK OFF. Fuck. I've had enough. That's my rant. And I'm having a GREAT FUCKING DAY thanks to some mother fuckers here. THE SOUTH WILL RISE. AGAIN. Current Mood: Ripshit
Tuesday, February 24th, 2009
9:58 am	I got my own bowling ball! Now, I can appreciate The Big Lebowski much more than before. And I'm gonna go bowling now, in fact. Before my doctor's appointment. Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee Me and Alicia threw last night. Congrats to her on striking out, and her first turkey strike!! I threw TWO Turkey Strikes, first time I ever did that! I'm very happy with my recent purchase. Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Luca Turelli - War of the Universe (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 21st, 2009
9:51 pm	I had this written up a while ago. Thought I'd share it with some peeps here, especially those in the DnD Campaign. __________ "Afterlife (The Calling) - Part 1" Sebastian woke up in the middle of a field, dotted with various flowers and plenty of grass. He was in a different garb than thought before. Worse yet, he didn't recognize this place at all. Why was he asleep in the middle of a prarie, anyways...? Lifting himself up and sitting up, Sebastian blinked a few times before adjusting his view. This was not where he was before. Yet, he seemed to be at home in this place, with the warm sun shining upon him, and a mild air all around. The air was crisp and clean, and everything around him seemed to have renewed life within. Sebastian rose to his feet and almost lost his balance. He looked around yet again. This time, he could see vast plains, various plants and animals, and some hills, but no people in sight. This is...certainly a place, he thought to himself. What am I doing here? ...How did I get here...? Last I recall...there were a horde of unsightly ghouls and ghosts... Sebastian started to pace back and forth as his mind raced. His heart started to beat faster. Then he started to piece it all together. The bright colors...the plentiful warmth...the sun...He was in Elysium. He was in the afterlife. There were a few times in which he visited this place, only to return to finish his task. But this time, he found himself walking around, staying put. Another memory came flooding back into him. This is...what I wanted...wasn't it...? I...just could not take the pain any more. I wanted to be free... "My child..." Sebastian seemed to be in two emotions at once. At that moment, he froze, as if he had seen a ghost, but at the same time, he felt calm and collected at the sound of a man's voice. The voice sounded venerable, yet it had some pristine power to the tone. A gentle hand rested upon his shoulder. Without looking to see who it was behind him, Sebastian answered back, "My father...I..." "Do not worry, my child. You are in my domain. You are in my realm, my power. You, who served me since you were young, are home." Looking to see behind him now, the cleric paused to bask in the warmth of this man. It was Pelor, the same God whom he served in his life. He smiled upon the cleric, and spoke yet again. "The task that was laid before you...the Warbringer." Pelor stepped in front of Sebastian as he spoke. "...That demon of a weapon...he is a hinderance to the Four Kingdoms. He is a dark soul in the midst of many heroes of light." Sebastian so desperatly wanted to speak, but he dared not interrupt. "They need you, my child...they need me, and I act through you. The will not last long against such foul evil." The cleric lowered his head. "Shining one...I fear that I am not strong enough...I...I'm afraid...I can't go back." The calm God knelt to one knee and took Sebastian's hand. "If you wish to get stronger, you must believe in me. And I know you, my child. You have always believed in me. Now...walk with me. We must travel and meet with someone." Meet...someone...? _____________________________ Part two will be in the next post. Current Mood: creative Current Music: Limp Bizkit - My Way (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 19th, 2009
1:59 pm	Let me just say that...people just...suck. This is why our country fails. http://www.cnn.com/2009/US/02/18/drunk.amputee.payout/ Current Mood: busy (4 Comments |Comment on this)